A human being should be able to change a diaper, plan an invasion, butcher a hog, conn a ship, design a building, write a sonnet, balance accounts, build a wall, set a bone, comfort the dying, take orders, give orders, cooperate, act alone, solve equations, analyze a new problem, pitch manure, program a computer, cook a tasty meal, fight efficiently, die gallantly. Specialization is for insects.
-Robert A. Heinlein
You need to find balance between two opposing desires. At this time in your life, you need to be clear on what your priorities are and choose your actions accordingly.
You may need to plan your commitments and time more wisely. You are overburdened with everything you're trying to do and having trouble keeping up. You may be struggling to keep up with bills and finances. You may need to balance work and life better. Now is not the time to commit but rather the time to plan.